Long Distance Friendship

You called back tonight and I was not in the mood. Not in the mood to keep up with appearances nor try to explain the underlying truth beneath my mean words. I was tired of being reminded each and every time of the possibility of us never getting back together. It's only a matter of time before this casual checking up on each other habit dies out. So why pretend we're close when I haven't seen you in years!

When I think about the last time we saw each other, I remember the lack of words we had for each other. We used to talk for long hours on the phone for months but when we finally came face-to-face, no conversation was actually made. And as soon as you stopped seeing my face, you insensitively and flat out told me you were cheating with someone else only to call months and months later to tell me it was a lie when things between you and her were going wrong.

Do you know how long I blamed my looks for your abrupt rejection??

Do you realize how impacted I was and still am by having you, whom I thought was the love of my life, do something so selfish and careless??

I am not over it!

Being friends on the phone and patching things up virtually is one thing. But honestly, and like I said tonight, if we were ever to meet up again, you'd be a stranger. I'd WANT us to be strangers. I've changed and so have you, as you say. So why pretend to leave 'empty special seats' for each other in our life, when we're miles apart and never really plan on seeing each other??

WHY!?